This journal is un-officially friends only.

Mostly because the only mass "make all my posts friend's only" option i've been able to find is for paid members only...

So I suppose if you're really that interested in my personal life nowadays, leave a comment and I might add you once we get to know each other a bit. Or enjoy all my old posts, which aren't friends-only I suppose...?

For those of you on my friends list...well...I suppose this post isn't much for you =)

I was going to put something really snarky here...

but ya know what?

I don't think it's f-ing worth it. Like other things weren't worth it, cuz they didn't make any f-ing differences in the end, anyways.

OOPS! guess I did say it.

whatever. Consider this journal FO for awhile.

You Are Courier New

You have a deep appreciation for tradition and history. You don't eschew modernity, but you do have a deep reverence for the past. You are very literate. It's likely you enjoy writing and reading. Some people may feel you're a bit cold, but you just have high standards for who you hang out with.

really...pretty accurate lol

OMGMAUREENJOHNSONSPAZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZ

I've spent about ....well, I don't really know exactly the hours, cuz it was on-and-off......I've spent all day reading Maureen Johnson's 13 Little Blue Envelopes and OHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHMIGOD!!!!!!!!!!!!! soooo~~ good!!!

lighter than I was expecting...and, I'll admit, lighter than I normally like...but it was SO good...........

=D Quite the pick-me-up....

You *points* should read this book. <3

cuz i really want to watch them.....but i get soooo~ sleepy when there's no athletes/sports i'm really interested in...

and then i come upstairs and tell myself that i'm gonna go to bed...

but i just come online instead.

i'm a dork~ hahaha

it should be easier to find good fics for canon pairings.

...just thought it needed to be said. <3

So...I feel really disconnected from fandom in general.

My solution?

Fanfiction, my friends, fanfiction. Fanfiction...and LJ communities.

I'm baaaaaaaaa~ck!

don't ask me for how long though, lol

As of today, I have been a member of ff.n for four years and 1 month.

that, i think, while not saying volumes says a lot...i don't really know of what, because my writing hasn't exactly been consistent there, but i think i can easily attribute a good portion of my growth as a writer to those four years there.

i feel a great sense of accomplishment, being able to scroll down through my entries and seeing Rinathan's Love sitting there, as incomplete as she will ever be, maybe as she was ever meant to be, and knowing that that fic is what caused me to get an account in the first place. to me, it's symbolic and despite its imperfections i don't think i'm ever going to take it down. it symbolizes a beginning, and it symbolizes on a larger scale that no matter what, no canon piece will ever be complete, because there will always be fandom and fanfiction, and as a fic writer looking to create a canon universe of my own one day, i think that's a good thing to remember: that my piece will never be perfect, for one, and for another that i won't have to worry about my characters when i'm done with them, because there'll always be someone else to take care of them while i'm away in yet another universe with yet more characters. that's how i decide to look at fanfiction and all its copyright infringement-like activities, that it's us "apprentice" writers taking care of our "teachers" characters whilst they are away.

it's also nice knowing that ff.n is also what sparked my interest in anime to begin with...TAD was a great fic.

so huzzah to four years of fanfiction-ing.

but that's enough nostalgia-esque thoughts from me. look at johnny and his sexy hat. that's much more interesting than my incoherent ramblings ^.~

<3

I'm really just posting because i want to get use of this new icon. I find it qutie humorous. xD

So...anywho...I've started working on a GenSaku chapter fic.

BWAAAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAH.hahaha, yeah, i crack me up too. XD

So i was watching this earilier today...and i got to thinking...

i've become really disconnected from fandom, generally.

...and i could go off on some long discourse about they whys and so on but.......that takes too much effort.

so instead i suppose i'll just skip off to youtube or ff.n or something.

ya.

so i really need to get back "in the swing of things" here......my friends list is so "backlogged" it isn't even funny so i assume just start over. need to re-familiarize myself amongst the comm's i'm in an so on...

anyways...

AP English was today, and it was awesome ^_^ don't particularly want to Mr. Jimmy about it (Jimmy, for all of you that don't know and don't care because no one's really reading this...or at least i doubt anyone's reading this...is the most womanly man this world has ever seen..honestly, he has worse mood swings than I do...and i have pretty gruesome ones...) but what comes will come.

i get out of mutual tonight, so life's pretty good...that is such a contradiction....w/e

cuz one of my friends and i got to talking...and i remembered this old dusty thing...

*blows inch of dust off*

hehheh...

*RESURRECT!!!*

YAY!

so yeah...basically the past couple of months can be summed up by the following:

1) Boys suck.
2) I quit band (yay!) OFFICIALLY on May 1st, 2007, a marvelous day.
3) Boys really suck when they have worse mood swings than YOU...when you're PMSing...and there is no chocolate to be had for miles. xd
and 4) Pirates comes out soon! woohoo!

now don't you feel all caught-up after wondering "who the crap is this and why are they on mah friend's list?" ^_^

<3

So, got my grades back from the AP test I took last May and am finally getting around to sending it off to schools other than just BYU. (Gotta have Plan B ya know?) So I'm looking around at colleges in California that have good English programs, and more to the point, have good Creative Writing programs. So I'm right in the middle of looking over what UCR has to offer and I have this sort of revelation that I'm sure all aspiring authors have at one point and time.

So, I've said my whole life "I wanna be an author...I want to write...I'm going to be a novelist..." but is it really what's right for me to want to do? Is it really what I'm willing to put my heart and soul into doing, because that really is what it's going to take.

The fact of the matter is, a whole bunch of people always start there life off with "I want to be an author" (nevermind all the additional would-be firefighters, and pilots and police officers that never turn out that way)...just look at ff.n and ficpress and so on...And even if you do tough it out long enough to actually write a book, it's one thing to be an author, and to be published (especially nowadays when it seems practically anyone who puts pen to paper can get themselves a publisher) and another thing entirely to be known for your work. Honestly, how many J.K. Rowlings are there? Not many. But walk into any bookstore and you'll find tons and tons of books that have been written by tons and tons of different people.

So I've gotta step back and think a minute. How seriously am I going to take myself? How much of a fight am I really willing to put up?

It's kinda like me trying out for drum major next year...I know I would love nothing more than to stand up on that podium and conduct the 160+ members of the Regiment. And deep, deep down, in that place inside yourself that even the most egotistic rarely venture a look-at long enough to actually verbalize and bring to the forefront of their minds, I know I'd be good at it. And every single person that have been around when it's been brought up that my parents really want me to go for it always say how much they think I'd do a good job of it (and really mean it the way they say it). But I know it's gotta be stressful and I don't know how much strain being on Student Staff really is. So I'm giving myself this year to see how stressful life gets and to figure out my senior year class schedule and to see if I could take the added stress of being drum major. Which for something as--in the grand scheme of things--insignificant as being drum major in high school, I think is a good plan.

The problem is, where's that "feel around and find out what it'll be like" period for my career? Because I don't want to be the type of writer that only writes on the side because that's what they love doing. If I love doing it, I better be able to do it without interruption, or I know I'll go completely insane. I want, more than anything else, to be one of the J.K. Rowlings. And I think I could be...I just don't know exactly how many risks I'm going to have to take to get there, and I don't know if I'm going to be able to take those risks when they get here.

*sings* PICCOLO...PICCOLO...PICCOLO...

xD!!

Guess what boys and girls...

KYOKU GETS A PIC~COLO~~~!!!

teehee xDDDDD

i ish SOOOOOOOO happy!

But there is one problem...do i get a black piccolo?? or a gold piccolo??? or a green piccolo????

it ish a very big problem...

but ish okay...

because KYOKU GETS A PIC~COLO~~~!!!! xDDDDDDD

Yesterday was a good day. =D

My faith has been restored in the Harry Potter movies ^_^v

There are some very stupid people that leave reviews on ff.n...it amuses me xD hahaha

In other news (other than the fact that i get a week off school for Thanksgiving Yay!!!!!) the band did SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO GOOD SATRUDAY!!!!!!! Ohmigosh, it was incredible!! XD I'm still high off it =D Seriously though...our drumbline and auxilary did awesome-shabamness and the band got 89.4!!!!!! 89-POINT-FRIGGIN-4!!!!!!!!!!!

Can you say SWEEPSTAKES? Friggin HECK YES, BABY!! XD

Not only that, but we beat our rival by, like, 12.somethin points. To put that in perspective, usually the point difference between us is like, .4 or somethin. (TWELVE FRIGGIN POINTS!!!!!!!)

As you can tell...I'm rather excited. xD

Then, to finish off an awesome night, a bunch of us went out to Denny's and ate like none other. ^_^v The manager even gave us free dessert since we did so well. XD

xD

It made up for the fact that I have to wait until tomorrow to see Harry Potter cuz the stupid football team made CIF Championships, so we had an extra home game Friday night. (Would have gone today, but most everyone in band is going tomorrow and those of us that were going today wanted to help invade the movie theater with band twinkies.)

xD We're so gonna be ready for Fiesta Bowl in December...xD

0.0 yes! I return xD

SO first competition of the season on Saturday, very fun. We got 3rd, but it really couldn't be helped.

It is raining..rather hard actually. And so it is wet.

And...that was a rather random subject change...

eh *shrug*

I haven't been able to watch anything (anime-wise) in what seems like forever...and I read some fanfiction for the first time today since who knows when; it's strange to think that durning summer I was practically on the computer all day, whereas now I'm doing good to get twenty minutes to myself here and there. But that's the price you pay. I'm not complaining, just musing on how things work.

Went to a really good church fireside last night xD Brother Crippen is an AWESOME speaker, and I got a ride with Sister Hurdlik (seminary teacher) which was fun xD lol...haha...ah, conversation on the way back home was...interesting xD;;

gah..I'm tired. It's amazing what you can accomplish running on 3-5 hours of sleep per day. ^_^v

I need ideas for my acadeca speech...xP and I need to work on world history...and straighten my hair...and I should probably look up stuff for my research project...

nahhhh....

Huzzah! I live! xD

Basic run down of life right about now:

1) Chem sucks.
2) AP World History sucks.
3) High school students are complete idiots.
4) AcaDecians are insane.
5) I do not like getting up at 3:30 a.m. At all. grr.

and...

um...

yeah, that's about it. Band is getting so hectic...and we haven't even started competition yet! 0.0 eep! Anywho, we made the finals for the LA Fair parade competition, so we're off to the fair again tomorrow. Should be muchos fun ('cept for the bus ride, but we can ignore that tidbit) xD soooo excited for the 15th..first field competition of the year baby xD!!!!!!!!!!

And I'm REEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEALLY tired. _._zZzZzZzZz are you sure it's only 7:30 pm? Feels like it's 10:00. x.X